i don't really have much to say...
i guess i mend to be alone...
hiax... after so many days i been thinking over and over and there is one thing that i guess you guys must know...
there is a reason why i did not come to school...
there is a reason why i don't want to stay in class...
there is a reason why i cannot even stick with haslina, fanny and fatiin...
there is a reason why i keep going to co-op shop...
there is a reason why i keep a distance with haslina, fanny and fatiin..
i miss you guys...
the time we hangout...
the time we eat at prata shop...
the time we chat about guys...
the time we been together...
when me and haslina was eating together just the two of us...
when me and fatiin were outside co-op shop talking about our secrect...
when me and has chat about thick lip...
there are just too much things for me to tell you guys...
about my work...
about who i like...
about what i have been trough lately...
but...
when i saw you guys with mutz everything seem to disapper from my mind...
when i saw haslina i wanted to ask her to eat with me...
but...
the moment i saw mutz i will be thinking that i should eat alone...
i don't want to keep it to myself anymore...
i just cannot take it anymore...
the reason behind this is...
mutz he is a sensitive person, i don't want him to felt leftout as if i went to stick with haslina he will tense to avoid us. suppose to say avoid me...
since i was the one that mutz does not like, why not i step a step back and let them be...
there is one thing i felt lucky that is i've meet xiao feng and elaine...
they are really nice to me as a friend and they accept me for who i am...
elaine she has known me years, and as for xiao feng we know each others months ago...
thinking back...
i don really who i am...
i wanted for a rest...
i been not sleeping well lately...
i really wanted a rest a deep long rest :]